Three Reasons Not to Spend Your Day on Introspection

When your a college student with a lot of home work and an absent mind you begin to see the dangers of too much self examination. I do mean to say that being introspective is wrong but just as any good thing can be twisted for evil use so can it. I once heard C.J Mahaney say that we can never have a correct view of ourselves without first correctly viewing God. So with these truths in mind and many others I forgot, I give you three reasons to avoid too much introspection.

1. When you spend a lot of time talking to yourself and looking at what you are like you begin to lost interest in other people (as surprising as it may be, talking to yourself does not make you more popular).
2. It blinds the eyes toward art whether that be nature or a Van Gogh (it is really hard to see what is in front you when you are looking at your nose).
3. We lose close fellowship with God. When the Christian is busy looking at himself he forgets about fighting sin and tries to solve all his problems rather than bringing them to his Father.

Jesus

Jesus-

not the Jesus who's teachings were completed by the Koran, not the one who was just a fallen man who became a god and then created his own planet and then had a ton of spiritual prostitutes, not the one who was created by God and is just really important, not the one who is just a fairy tale, not the one who was just a historic figure, not the one who slept with marry and ran off with their children and we can know this because of some Famous painter's secret code,

not the Swedish one who wears a dress, not the one who is always posing for portraits, not just a name that half of the boarder hoppers claim as their own, not the one who was just a good guy, not the one who was just a crazy, not the one who was a good teacher, not the one who believes in every religion,

not the one who gives pharisees a pat on the back and beggars curse, not the one who never had a hard word for anyone, not the one who was easy to understand, not the one who wore fancy clothes and owned a fancy house and had lots of good friends who would never betray him, not the one who never suffered, not the one who was never crucified,

not the one who stayed dead, not the one who's body was stolen by his disciples after his death, not the one who was just "mostly dead" and recovered, not the one who became God, not the one who was fully man, not the one who was fully God, not the one who was only present in spirit.

I am talking about the one who rose on the third day, the one who showed himself to the Disciples again, the one who had a new and perfect body, the one who was both fully man and fully God, The one who rose up into the sky to be with the father after planting the first church, the one who is seated at The Father's right hand as I type, the one who is coming back again, the one who will show his wrath on those who have not turned to him from sin, the one who hates sins, the one who loves us sinners,

the one who died so that sinners could be brought into his joy, The one who existed from before there was time, the one who is a part of the Holy Trinity,

the one who loves me when I sin, when I fall, when I am weak, when I admit my need for grace, when I deny my need for grace, when I morn, when I rejoice (even when I should not), when I love, when I hate, when I repent, when I sleep, when I wake, when I die, when I go to be with him, when I rise from my grave, when I am given a new body to live on his new earth.

All these times he loves me. He loves me when he rebukes me for my sin, he loves me even on the dark nights when he seems to no longer be there. He is there, and he supplies our needs, he gives us faith when we are faithless, he gives us strength when we are weak, he gives us new spiritual life every day for we were all once dead. We can now go to God because at this moment he stands on believer's behalf. I can say this all for the Bible told me so...

-That Jesus

Math+The Glory of God?

Math and the Glory of God are often put together as a joke. I am writing just to suggest that Math glorifies God just as much as nature does, mainly because I think math could be seen as part of nature.
I want you to just think about what a number is. A number only represents something physical, at least for the most part. Math is all about numbers and therefore is all about world around us.

In my math class God has been showing me that math is all about rules and truths. Many of these Truths can be seen around us even when doing daily activities like counting up how many pairs of socks we have. Sock plus sock is a pair of socks or two socks never do we find ourselves with three socks from two. Math is all about the way the world works. Now the question is,"does the world work like this because we discovered these rules or are these rules just a way of explaining the way the world works?" It would just be silly to think that the world suddenly began to run on rules that we discovered. I believe that God created the rules which math must follow and the God created the rules which all creation obeys. I believe this because God said it is so,"He upholds the universe by the word of his power."(Heb 1:2).

Math is just another pointer to the truth that God is running all things. So do not just shrug off math. God can be seen in math. If I took time to tell you everything that God has taught me I would have to write a short essay. So I would encourage you to think about how the rules and laws of this world show God's character because he continues to hold them in place.

(sorry if this did not make a lot of sense my goal was to
encourage you to have small idea how Math can point
to God. I am hoping to make many more posts about
random things in life, shafts of light that point
back to the sun. The topic of Math is just a really
tough topic to start on.)

Confessions of My Own Deficiency as a Potential Husband/Father

Do you ever lay in bed alone and wonder who will be laying next to you someday? When I get settled into bed after a long day my mind will occasionally wander to these kind of thoughts. I don't know why it does; I suspect that it is because I am a 24 year old single guy with a natural desire be to married someday. Whatever the reason, this happens quite frequently. But, what usually happens next is the scary part for me.

I get overwhelmed with thoughts about how deficient I am as a man to even be married. How am I supposed to take care of a wife? How am I supposed to love her in that self-sacrificing way that Jesus loves the Church? How am I supposed to even meet someone 'good' enough? How could any women ever fall in love with such an arrogant, prideful, self-serving jerk like me? How would I build up the nerve to propose to a woman? And how in the world could I go through a wedding ceremony and reception? That sounds terrifying! And, what if have kids? How could I possibly raise children into adulthood and beyond? Will I remain faithful to this woman? Will I still be attracted to her after 10 years? 20 years? 30 years? What if she dies and I am left alone? What if she dies 3 years in? What if one of our children die? What if I die and she is left alone with our children?

These are all real possibilities and it is most likely that some of them will happen to me. I know myself well enough to know that I can't be the man God wants me to be for my future wife. When I lay in bed and all these thoughts run through my mind, my heart begins to weep because I know that I can't do it.

Truth be told: none of us, man or woman, can do it. Thank God that he has such grace for us in marriage to help us be what we need to be. Maybe all of this is weird to you, but for me it is a profound reminder that I need Jesus. I need a lot of the grace that is given through Jesus. This is like ripping a band-aid off of what I have been pretending to be a scrape but which is actually a mortal wound. But, God comes with his healing touch and assures me that He will carry and protect me, even through all the trials of marriage and fatherhood, to the end.

What fears do you have about being married someday? Or if you are already married, how are you reminded of your need for His grace?

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God's Purpose in Persecution, Part 2

In the last blog entry I reflected on Stephan's calling into the office of deacon, his performing of many miracles and his glorious death at the hands of Jewish leaders. We, as believers in Christ, must remember the great martyrs who came before us. It is important to remember that through many tribulations we will enter the kingdom of God (Acts 14:22). Our heavenly Father's ways are massively above our ways. You can't even for a split second have the remotest idea of how intricate and far reaching his plans and machinations are. He knows all hearts, all thoughts, every will of man. He controls all time and space with one effortless thought. Nothing can frustrate his will for all things are set in motion by him and are by their very nature inferior to him. Understand this: that your mind it self is finite and limited in its ability to perceive and understand and that our God and Saviour is unlimited and boundless in thought and power. Therefore, your very mind even at its fullest in understanding will always, until when glorification begins, be unable to fully grasp God.

Why do I say all of this? Aren't we talking about Stephan? My heart rejoices at the faithfulness of Stephan in front of the council and I lament for him as he endures unimaginable pain and suffering for the Gospel. But, I believe God is sovereign over these series of events and all of history. He allowed for Stephan to go through this great tribulation for his own purpose. God's will is always to bring glory to himself. I know in my own life, this can be very hard to see at times. But, I think Acts 8:1 points us very clearly to how God used Stephan's persecution and death to bring glory to himself.

And there arose on that day a great persecution against the church in Jerusalem, and they were all scattered throughout the regions of Judea and Samaria, except the apostles. - Acts 8:1


Keep in mind that the apostles, at this point, had only been operating in Jerusalem where they were preaching the word in the Temple and causing all kinds of problems for the Jewish leaders. Stephan's death was the start of a great persecution against the church and as a result the brethren were scattered throughout Israel. What did they take with them? The Gospel! What is going to happen if you scatter a bunch of devout, spirit-filled disciples of Christ out among the nations? The gospel is preached.

Now those who were scattered went about preaching the word. Philip went down to the city of Samaria and proclaimed to them the Christ. - Acts 8:4


They went beyond just Israel into what is now Lebanon and also into the Greek world.

Now those who were scattered because of the persecution that arose over Stephen traveled as far as Phoenicia and Cyprus and Antioch... – Acts 11:19a


The Jewish leaders tried to squash this steady growing movement and in doing so they only, by the will of the Lord, caused it to spread! How like the Lord to glorify himself in the foolish machinations of prideful men. Even Eliphaz understood that “He frustrates the devices of the crafty, so that their hands achieve no success.” (Job 5:12)

I think what we can learn from this episode in Acts is to trust in the faithfulness and perfect purpose of God. In the midst of our own suffering when the stones are flying and our hearts are bleeding look to Christ our Lord and believe that he works all things for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28). Remember that he is on the the throne.

God's Purpose in Persecution, Part 1 (Acts 6-7)

I have been working my way, scene by scene, through the book of the Acts of the Apostles. It has been an eye-opening and heart-shaping experience. How like the Lord to turn such a rag tag bunch of cowardly, blue collar workers into bold proclaimers of his Gospel of Grace. Reading through this book I have been struck by the bravery and faithfulness of Stephen. This man Stephen only makes a very brief appearance in the Scriptures but his impression is a lasting one.


The church was growing rapidly. In fact it was growing at such a rapid rate that the apostles were over burdened in their responsibilities as preachers of the word and servants of the believers. Many of the Hellenist widows in the church were being neglected in the daily distribution of food, clothes etc. It appears the apostles themselves were somehow overseeing if not directly distributing the goods. So they called all the disciples together and told them to choose seven men to serve the church and tend to its needs. One of these men was Stephen. The first line of scripture that describes him is Acts 6:5a:


And what they said pleased the whole gathering, and they chose Stephen, a man full of faith and of the Holy Spirit... - Acts 6:5a



The prerequisites for this early office of deacon were being of good repute, having fullness of faith, and being spirit-filled and Stephen must have met all of these. In v.8 it is recorded that he, in his new role as servant, was doing great signs and wonders among the people and members of a local synagogue rose up against him. The Bible does not explicitly state the setting in which Stephen was empowered to perform these signs, but one can conclude that it was certainly public enough where outsiders were noticing.


The men from these synagogues opposed Stephen but Stephen was a spirit-filled man and and his wisdom was of God. I remember how frustrated I used to get with my Christian friends before I was a true believer. In our fallen state we somehow come to believe our own minds are bastions of truth that cannot be conquered by simple-minded Christians. As it says in the Proverbs:


If a wise man has an argument with a fool, the fool only rages and laughs, and there is no quiet. - Proverbs 29:9



God poured his wisdom through the lips of Stephen and these foolish men were enveloped in rage. Along with the elders, scribes and the people they seized faithful Stephen and took him to the Jewish council.

Haven't we been here before? We are always asking the Lord to make us more like Jesus. Please O Lord! Make me more like your Son! But, as we examine the Bible and God's will for his servants of old, often times making them more like his son involved putting them in situations that mirrored Christ's own path: namely one of extreme suffering.

So Stephen is taken before this council where a host of false witnesses testify against him. They spew all sorts of wicked lies and distortions hoping for his condemnation. But take a look at verse 15:
And gazing at him, all who sat in the council saw that his face was like the face of an angel.


How very peculiar! When Scripture records that he was “full of the Holy Spirit” it was not an exaggeration. Before the council, Stephen was so full of the Spirit of God that his face, I think, was aglow. How glorious is our God? Recall with me when Jesus was in this very same situation, the Apostle Peter was full of shame and denied him three times. I like to think that Peter was present once more in the chambers of this council as his brother Stephen stood among the Jewish leaders. But, this time his heart rejoiced as he gazed upon the face of Stephen watching him glow with the Holy Spirit. Obviously, I can't say that with any certainty but I think we can infer from the text that some of the apostles were present. They must have been amazed as God worked in power through Stephen

After the false witnesses spoke their lies the high priest asked Stephen if their accusations were true. How I wish I could be like Stephen in the moment that follows. Instead of offering up a defense he preaches the Gospel! Starting with the patriarch Abraham and drawing a thread all the way to the empty garden tomb he proclaims Jesus as the long-awaited Messiah.

His message only serves to enrage them further as the Gospel tends to do quite often. Then to add to the already remarkable events that have transpired, Stephen is filled even further with the Holy Spirit and gazes up into Heaven where he sees Jesus at the right hand of the Father. His description of this glorious vision is the final straw. They rush him out of the city and begin to stone him. As the jagged bits of rock and stone batter his bruised and broken body he speaks his final words, words that should be on the lips of every believer amidst even the lightest of persecution:


And falling to his knees he cried out with a loud voice, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” And when he had said this, he fell asleep. - Acts 7:60


As believers in Christ we are called to suffer. But, why do we turn away from suffering? What is it that grips us with such fear as to deny our great God and Saviour Jesus Christ? As I look at Stephen, I am encouraged and inspired to share in suffering for the Gospel by the power of God (2 Tim. 1:8). Stephen did not suffer by his own accord. Luke records several times that he was full of the Spirit of God, thus in his moment of great persecution and suffering he was doing it all by the power of God.

But, what is God's purpose in all of this? Continue reading in Acts 8 to find out. Or, you can wait for part 2! Hopefully, you will do both.